Telluride Daily Planet, Sunday, July 24, 2016

A half pint of raspberries sits on the kitchen counter.

These are the tiny variety, handpicked by someone who cares a lot, maybe someone deep in blissful connection to nature as the midsummer sun beats down, a heat interrupted only by the occasional thunderhead lumbering across the sky, laying its blue shadow down.

The purchase price of this basket is far too little ($3) at a local farmer’s market. Rather than that berry-on-steroids look of today, this sampling has a soft, dusty appearance, as if modestly hiding the fullness of its color. Are these wild, actually? Who knows.

(Poured onto the counter for inspection, one particular berry rolls off to the left, toward the potted fern on the kitchen island, succeeding — almost! — in hiding itself under the shade of a frond. After coming to a complete stop, it moves another inch, on its own, and bumps ever so gently into a coffee mug.  A micro sigh is released.)

MCW (moving closer in, seeing one of the berry’s hairs move slightly): Hello?

(The raspberry, emitting a tiny blur of sounds, then rolls back the length of a single drupelet — the nodes that comprise the whole drupe.)

MCW (looking around for husband in vicinity): I realize this is the magical part of July, but seriously. Are you for real?

RB: I’m real. Geez. (The voice is a pipsqueak’s. Not a cartoon character’s, or even an animated anything’s, but a lovely, sweet, squeaky sort of drawling voice the loudness of, say, a baby bumblebee.) Flesh and juice. Oh, and 6 percent fiber by total weight. Which is very high.

MCW: By the grace of summer magic, I am speaking with a raspberry. My favorite fruit.

RB (waving all her hairs, acknowledging compliment): Well. Except for plums, though, right?

MCW (blushing deeply): I mean, I like plums so very much. But …

RB (interrupting): I admire their color, firmness and versatility, as well. (RB rolls a single drupelet again, toward the human in checked pajamas, who is scanning the counter for reading glasses.) But we are a bit more sensuous, you know? Plums hold it all in; you don’t get that feeling with us.

MCW: So much more sensuous! I mean plums are, when you bite into them. Anyway. Sorry I lied. I didn’t want to hurt your feelings. And now, seeing you like this, I mean you easily might be my favorite fruit of all time. Even given the little I know of your personality. Your voice alone …

RB: I’m a Leo. Most of us wild raspberries are, in this part of the world. Born in late July or August. So there’s a little ego and pride there, as well as a fixation with our “manes.” (RB makes her hairs stand up).

MCW: You are adorable. Can you do the hair trick again? And do all of you speak?

RB (waves hairs): Goodness, no. We’re born mute. Aside for the sounds we make when we grow, which are not audible to humans. And the sound we make when we either fall to the ground or into a container. Sounds made by mouths eating us don’t count. Me (she topples into a cavity-down headstand), I arrived with a passion for languages. English will probably be the only one I learn, though, since my ripespan is really only two to three weeks.

MCW: Your ripespan. (MCW nods slowly.) What a concept.

RB: Right?

MCW: What is it for humans, I wonder.

RB: Most of you would say youth. But youth is not ripeness, now, is it?

MCW: It’s just so obvious for fruit. You ripen, then fall.

RB: At the height of our glory. As sweet as we can get. (RB slowly rolls toward the human hand on the counter, then bumps into it, like the softest, gentlest raspberry breeze.) So sweet it makes even animals swoon.

MCW: Animals … swoon?

RB: In private they do. (RB presses her hairs into the human flesh.) And you can, too, emceedubs.

MCW: You know my name? And you want me to eat you, now? The first fruit friend I’ve ever had?

RB: You have given Rubus idaeus— raspberries are from the rose family —the first voice they’ve had since, oh, I don’t know. Findhorn? Camelot? Atlantis?

MCW: Wait. Are you saying …

RB (giggling a drupelet completely off): I’m playing with you. But, see, I’m falling apart in ripeness. Pick me up and lay me down on your tongue. It’s my time.

(On the human tongue, the raspberry becomes quiet and utterly submissive. The human bears down, feeling the drupelets give, bursting in flavor; and, for a moment — a brief transcendent moment — summer’s own ripeness, a mysterious mix of heat and sugar, implodes in glory.)


How to build a house (part 1)

Telluride Daily Planet, Sunday, July 10, 2016

At eight years of age, my best friend is a little girl named Minnie who lives not too far from our house on the shores of Lake Washington, in Seattle, a friend with whom I spend the majority of my days, outside, making stuff up.

We make up a language and we make up a club, of which we are the only members. We create a clubhouse in Minnie’s backyard among the Northwestern azaleas and rhododendrons and we sit there, squatting, serving things on leaf plates and pretending we understand our language, which consists of only two words put together in different ways. It is deliciously cozy and consumes our days. We feel sheltered not only by trees and shrubs but by the insular, hermetically sealed world of best friendship.

In contrast, the house I live in with my family — that speaks the normal language of dysfunction with too many words put together in too many ways — is vast and contains rooms that each have their own particular vibe. The dining room rings of precision and order, the kitchen of Mozart (my mother’s single obsession), the TV room of my father’s uninhibited laughter (heard only late at night with each one of Johnny Carson’s jokes). The living room has a stiff shirt-and-shoes-only feel, and the cellar, of course, off-gasses fear.

My room, which is covered in red and gold Chinese wallpaper (dad’s choice and I am not allowed to tack up or move things), is, at least, a smallish room, and it is carpeted. I hide coins under the corners of the carpet and sleep with my two stuffed snakes, each one flanking me snuggly like a sentry. I don’t feel particularly safe in this house, as big as it is; this being said, though, I still dream about it, and visit it occasionally, as if, really, it has always inhabited me.

Aside from the crucible of my eighth year are all the other houses and homes I live in during my life, from the last of the antique-filled dorm rooms in a small So-Cal college to the last hippie house off Dupont Circle in D.C. to one of the last of the sweeeeeet ski-bum houses in Telluride (right across from the current library), which rents for $250 a month in 1990.

In 1993, we buy a house at Lawson Hill when the development is still young, and we stay put, feeling it fill out with life, our child’s life. I construct a tree in her room, up to the ceiling, and plop a freezer-sized playhouse down beside it. The actual trees on the property get bigger and so does she, and when I finally sell the house, her loss is large enough that I know we have been successful in creating a home, and not just one that will stalk her in her dreams.

I am remembering, too, a tiny, impeccable woodsie home we stumble upon some eight or nine years ago while tromping through the aspens in summer. Lock and key, doormat and door. Clad windows. We find the key and trespass, slowly peeking in then stepping in completely. There is barely room for the three of us who stand there, dumb and in wonder, at the care and completeness of the surroundings. Sink, tiny bookshelves, bed, closet, windows with a view. Everything is in its place. What more could be needed in life than this? Silently, we compare it to our relatively very large house, and then, one click up, compare it to the mega-homes higher on the hill. What is shelter? To sleep, eat, read, stay warm, all in the company of trees, while mosses grow on the shingled roof?

Now, on a brand new day, I am in yet another house, one that we have helped build with our own hands, one that we have, with some help, designed and laid out. One that saw every cliché of house building come true despite our cavalier dismissal of generalizations and of pitfalls only others would encounter.

I am standing here on a floor I helped lay, humbled in every way by the process. I ask myself what it is I want to feel here — the deliciousness of my Minnie-days Diggity-dog club, the coziness of the woodsie, a delight in waking up and seeing the sun pour in, the peace and security of a cherished space. I want to cultivate gratitude for the daily miracles of comfort, beauty and light.

Already, I can tell you there is one thing I feel an enormous appreciation for — uninhibited joy and a profound sense of well-being, even — and that is that after over 30 years at altitude, I now have enough BTUs on the range to boil water well every time. I will never, ever take this for granted — which is a feeling I hope will spread in contagion to all the rooms of my life.

Rainbow medicine

Telluride Daily Planet, Sunday, November 15, 2015

What have we to be thankful for? A living world of color (for one thing). The saturated and rich, the pale, the faded, the textured, the intense, the suggestive, the translucent. Eyeballs of today, screenburned, jaded and atrophied by narrowing fields of vision, need the good, strong, sane medicine of color.

Me, I like violets, humble and sweet, with heart-shaped leaves and deep, delicate petals. They ask us to bend down and bring our faces low, and remind us, growing there next to trees, of small next to big and big next to small. And sugar violets on cakes, can we love these, too? We can. Just like we can love the sweetness of sour grape balls and C. Howard’s Violet Scented Gum in the purple package.

Violet lives in cabbage leaves, the stretched out skin of figs, orchid parts, the insides of bitten plums. A strip of bright violet sky fades with the setting sun. Here’s another one: Elizabeth Taylor, with her one-of-a-kind violet eyes, an actual anomaly to go with another anomaly, her double set of eyelashes. Violet, a bunny’s favorite color, is the color of kings’ robes, amethyst rings, and little-girl leggings. It is the color of bygone ink scribbling, “Darling, I miss you.” In violet we trust.

Indigo, mysterious, dense, and delicious, is the true color of the so-called blueberry. It is the color of new denim jeans being washed in hot water. The indigo milk cap, a plain-seeming mushroom, can stain paper and fingers this shade of blue-black. Exotic indigo is the raw stuff of Halloween masks and dyed feathers, and poison, perhaps. It is the color of midnight shadows, of things that groan and creak, and of the massive North American indigo snake that eats other snakes for dinner. Indigo, going and gone. In indigo we lurk.

Blue speaks to both the bright and glum — the umbrella of sky and sorrows drooping. Bluebirds, top testifiers of cheer, cross the airy way with wings flashing bits and pieces of elemental hue. Blue! I love your name. You are a broad color with many cousins, from evening snow and crisp men’s shirts to glistering mirror lakes and crackled robins’ eggs. It is our blue planet ever so slowly creating with crushing power the bluest of Kashmir sapphires. What wallpapers a corner of my heart, though, is that medieval-painting blue, the one next to the gold of halos, beams of glory and tiny fleurs-de-lis. That blue is lush. In blue we sink or swim, we fly, or settle in.

Beneath the warming skin of ripening fruit like oranges and mangos is the high potentate of color – green — the color of life, ever ready. Green is Go, and Live, and Surge, and Conserve and Rejuvenate in shades of pine and olive, kelly, pistachio, lime, basil and stormy sea.  Green is all this: the frog, the lily pad, the insect on its tongue, and the willow’s leaves grazing the greenish pond. Yes, of course, green is envy, jealousy and the clear appraisal of a cat’s eye. Green is sometimes goo, and bile, mold, oxidation, and life attacking itself; one of the colors has to be both creator and destroyer, does it not? In green we surrender.

Yellow is thus experienced flawlessly: amid a stand of aspens all gone golden — whose  leaves contains the sun itself — the willing human stands receptive, allowing the color to penetrate and permeate first through the top of the head, then through closed eyelids, then back and down the throat and deep into the heart where it glows in its purest form long enough to carry us through the crawling months of blue-white winter. In yellow we thrill.

Orange, perhaps the most maligned of colors, is the color of the shirt or sweater you rarely wear. A loudmouth of a color. Really, how could we be expected to pull off the signature color of goldfish and pumpkins, Gerber daisies, tangerines, Himalayan salt lamps, carrot soup, rust and monarch butterflies? Chicken Tikka and Thai iced tea: Now, there are oranges you won’t soon forget. Orange is the exclamation point of colors. It’s the flaming hair of prancing foxes in the cold dry air. Orange is electric. In orange we vibrate.

Red, the color that points its fat finger right back to the beginning of the spectrum, is a red-ripe rose, a rosehip, an apple, a tomato and a raspberry. It is Rudolph’s nose.  Red is the color of heat, of blood, of fire engines, stop signs, corrected papers, and that red dress that says, “Get me my heels, I won’t be stopped. And help me with my coat, while you’re at it.” It is the bossy child of color and needs supervision at all times, unless it’s a flower or a piece of fruit. It is a bull’s favorite and least favorite color. In red we surge.

Life gives us a rainbow of colors every day. All we have to do is look up from our handheld devices long enough to see, register and marvel. Amen.


#waffle vs. peach

Telluride Daily Planet, Sunday, September 20, 2015

I am staring down at my phone, at an Instagram post from a food blogger I like, trying to fathom how a sweet potato waffle gets 13,616 likes. Yes, of course, she has a lot of followers — 841K is what it says — with some of those followers possibly purchased, traded for, who knows, but enough people staring at a waffle to form a political party, and, for all I know, one that could usher in a kinder, sweeter (or more savory) era of breakfast-oriented national politics.

On second thought, no!

 So, 13,000 people have now stared at this post and taken a moment out of their day — at their desk at work, at their kitchen sink, sitting on a bench in a park, on a subway, walking down the street staring at their phone, lying in bed at night — to tap their finger on the screen and heart the post. What does this mean?

Does it mean we’re always hungry? That we follow the blogger? That we’re breakfast lovers? That the photo is particularly evocative? That we are inclined to follow a viral waffle? That we simply like the power of liking? That we heart and need the breakfast-in-bed waffle lifestyle? That we like it when people care enough to make food well and make it look pretty? That we are mindlessly touching screens like we used to mindlessly stare out windows? What?

Surely, the waffles look good; they do. On closer scrutiny, I kid you not, they happen to have used my plates in the styling, my everyday dinner set. The two sweet potato waffles have a fried egg on top, and a few wedges of compulsory avocado on the side. A tiny pitcher of syrup dots the NNE corner of the post. After scrolling through 231 comments, most of them a few words max and meant to get the attention of @someone, I am still staring at this blog post on my phone, thinking about all the recipes I’ve tried from these various bloggers. I am on my couch. Our deer family outside is busy eating our grass as sun glints through the quaking aspens.

Like a lot of us, I used to have a wall full of cookbooks. Everything from the old Rumford Cookbook that was my mother’s to dozens and dozens of books collected over many years and gifted from a friend in the publishing industry. I had my mother’s recipe box, the one my dad and I made for her, each index card stamped with a rooster I’d carved out of a pink eraser. I had all the yellowed newspaper clippings of appetizers and casseroles, with scribbled-in notes, cross-outs, substitutions. A little “good” at the top, underlined, was the old version of a Like.

Most of those cookbooks are gone now, given away. Some of the recipes I’ve kept just to honor tradition, but frankly, my mother, however French, was not a great cook. The war years (Paris, 1939-45) took away her appetite permanently and she fed us diligently but without — understandably — much delight in the process. Her kitchen hours were spent simply, with simple ingredients, some of them packaged, and Mozart playing on the transistor radio. I am unsure what she would have made of food blogs and posts on Instagram. She might have opted to post pictures of her roses, the magnolia tree, the dogwood, the precious white strawberries. Food would not have captured her fancy, not like it did my daughter’s, who started reading food blogs seriously at the age of fourteen.

Nowadays, we have six ingredients in the fridge and we can Google or hashtag what to do with them for dinner, sometimes rather ingeniously. We can order ethnic condiments online for overnight delivery. With the barrage of recipes coming at us from the blogosphere, we can learn about salting chocolate chip cookies, using beets to make burgers, cauliflower to make rice and coconut flour to make bread. We can search #waffles and get over a million Instagram posts, which doesn’t include #waffle (singular), #wafflelove, #waffletime or scores of others. Every day we can try something novel. Every meal, every snack, every smoothie can be new, improved, exciting and practically ready to photograph. We can photograph it, in fact, and post it to our own Instagram account. In my case, I would probably get my average: 15 likes. #notimpressive #ohsowhat

All of this in contrast to a moment in the kitchen the other day when we cut apart a large farmer’s market peach, paring out the bad parts and wondering how good it would be, lamenting the bruise after having spent about $3 for it. I slice off a hunk and drop it in my mouth like an oyster. The rest goes in my husband’s lunchbox. When he gets home, he says, “That peach from today?”

I know what he doesn’t even have to say. That it was absolute perfection. The best peach of the season, so sweet and tangy-skinned, so soft and ripe and juicy and reminiscent of everything summer. A non-virtual heart-of-the-now moment of taste, of pleasure, of sweetness and, yes, even lifestyle. Conclusion? #sometimessimpleisbest


Telluride Daily Planet, Sunday, June 14, 2015

We are standing at the trailhead with daypacks and raincoats, scanning the sky, semi-dark and changeable. There is not a soul in sight on this middle-of-nowhere hike in south central Utah, on a mini-expedition we’ve selected from the lodge’s friendly little handout. Canyon country.

The weather’s not great, but at the same time, it’s interesting and not too hot. We read the trailhead warning signs about taking water and coming prepared for any variety of situations and discuss the fact that even though it’s not entirely clear which direction to go since there is a trail going left and one going right, it’s a relatively short loop and probably doesn’t matter. Right?

We choose left, a well-trod and cairn-marked path heading into a wide canyon. It’s 11 a.m., and we’ve brought plenty of snacks in anticipation of stops for petrified wood and the promised deep and narrow canyons. I am feeling bolstered by the fact that we did not have a flat tire on the drive in, because all morning a dull sense of unease has been present.

Within half an hour of gloomy April weather, we’ve donned our coats and settled into the silence of the place, a silence broken only by the sound of our feet. It is a vast, humbling and head-filling quiet. We note again what must be the tricky nature of this loop, which seems to be going in the wrong direction.

Finally, heading squarely into the deep canyon, we pick along through the rocks of a riverbed until something notable is at our feet: a dead raven, perfectly splayed, wings outstretched. Its head, almost surgically severed, is missing. How strange, we say. And in spite of what might unequivocally be taken as a sign to flee and not look back by all the sign-savvy peoples of the world united, we trek on, remarking how lucky it is we are on the right trail and have not turned back. Right?

Around hour three of what is supposed to be a five-mile loop, we emerge from the canyon into a crossways valley and a road. Huh, we say. A road. We go left, tipped off by a lone cairn, and wander what appears to be farther and farther away from our point of origin.

This is how a short hike becomes long and a long story becomes short.

We take the cairn, which turns out to be, despite the lodge’s assurances to follow them, an evil trick cairn. Continuing on past a tiny hut containing a dubious character, we take to looking over our shoulders for the next hour as we follow sandy footsteps deeper and deeper into bushwhack territory. Finally, hitting the Escalante River with zero trace of a well-trodden path, we stop, look around and slump. Four and a half hours in, and it becomes plain we have to turn back. After skirting the tiny creepy shack, we bump into a backpacking father and son who have followed the river in. We assure them we are OK, but soon after that, back in the middle of the deep canyon, we run out of water, leg cramps to prove it. When we pass the raven again, we stare a little longer this time and then look up, watching long shadows make their way across the spire tops. The sky has cleared and turned a deep shade of clear blue. We probably have two hours to go and are crawling along, in utter disproportion of our eagerness to get home.

Somehow, impossibly, I manage to lead us off the trail again, and onto the wrong side of a butte. An important butte to be on the right side of. Right?

Two things are on my mind now, 1) if it gets dark, we will spend the night in the desert, which would not be so bad if 2) my daughter were not likely to do whatever is necessary to make sure we are accounted for. Adrenaline, not one of my addictions, kicks in and I begin running across the big valley until I intersect the real trail at last.

Nine hours after we set out, we are back at the car, just as the sun is setting. An hour and a half after that, after getting lost just one more time for good measure, we are back at the lodge’s restaurant eating the last of their bread and butter while the chef regales us with tales of the Wolverine, a notorious loop that is so notoriously hard to find.

All I can say is this: good thing it wasn’t mid-July, the sun blazing, torching through all the remaining common sense filaments of two intelligent people too cavalier to see the signs. Right?

Peabody, here

Telluride Daily Planet, Sunday, August 3, 2014

We’re in the staff cafeteria (Enders Hall) of the Rocky Mountain Biological Laboratory in the ghost town of Gothic right outside Crested Butte where we are having lunch. Beef brisket sandwiches with barbecue sauce, a substantial salad bar, and, astonishingly, fresh cream puffs filled with chocolate crème patissière for dessert. I love it! The only thing missing? Those little square cartons of milk we used to buy in elementary school (somewhere back in the late Pleistocene) for three cents each, where you lifted up the foiled corner to stick the straw in.


As if the cafeteria and beautiful Elk Mountains we’ve been exploring aren’t enough, we’re talking with scientists! We’re about to have a private tour of the facility with the boyish biologist who runs it, the friend of a friend.

At lunch, we listen to some of these scientists at our table (there are about seventy in Gothic for the summer, a number of whom have been coming for twenty years or more) talk about their various areas of study. Salamanders in running water. Salamanders in still water. Specific insects. A current project involving the study of ancient bacteria whose on-off switches relate to their appetite/non-appetite for uranium. All fantastic stuff. But what exactly happens to us non-scientists as we engage with the inquirers and observers and quantifiers of the world?

As I ask questions, sitting there at the table (anyone can eat breakfast, lunch or dinner at Enders Hall quite cheaply and with only 24-hour notice), often a scientist will restate the question in order to answer it more capably. It feels neither bossy nor condescending nor rigid, but more like something that simply must be done to effectuate better discourse. It’s humbling but not necessarily in a bad way. What does it feel like? Sort of like a cross between a slightly painful chiropractic adjustment and being given the pitch from a pitch pipe.

Early in the tour, our guide pulls out a drawer of native bees (smaller than the European honeybee, and non-honey-storing) so we can see the hundreds upon hundreds of specimens gathered and pinned in with miniscule rods and tagged with miniscule bar codes. I’m riveted by the gridded display. It’s captivating! There are those who – by the grace of god and with not without a good dose of compulsion — catalogue, organize, compare, chronicle, and exhibit. Not to mention experiment and hypothesize.

I begin to see the nature of my own non-scientific brain, its loosey-goosey aspects, its stretchy, lazy and seemingly not-so-compulsive qualities. Is it out of shape? In a different kind of shape? Messy? Does it bulge in parts and atrophy in others? Because what I’m thinking about all of a sudden after seeing the sheet of micro-bees is Robinson Crusoe and Kepler and Joseph Cornell’s boxes. Then I start thinking about what the world would feel like left un-barcoded, uncategorized, simply… whole. That stretchy part of my brain stretches a little. Lazy, indulgent stretching? Maybe. All I know is the world feels huge and tiny and exceedingly complex and yet glued together by some kind of simple super-unifying force. Miraculous!

Eventually, though, the bi-polar nature of an undisciplined mind comes calling: hey, why is it I know so little not only about the physical sciences but the natural sciences as well? And what it is we’re supposed to know in life? And how are we even supposed to know what we are supposed to know? Certainly, one current mode of thinking is that it’s not so much about being encyclopedic in our knowledge but knowing how to access information. I don’t know. Personally, I’d like a little more Brittanica with my Google. I’d like a little more 19th century education with my 20th and 21st. Maybe more wisdom with my information.

Later that night, thinking of the specimen drawers again, the scanning microscope, the deep freezers, the stark offices, the field-work boots and bibs and tools all lined up and everything in good order in the repurposed ghost town buildings of Gothic, I give thanks for these scientists. One thing we’ve been told by our guide, one thing that has shifted the tectonic plates of our brains just slightly, is that only 1 of the 10 cells in our bodies is human. We may house 10 trillion human cells, but we also host 100 trillion bacteria. Thus, as walking, talking, metabolizing, sentient micriobiomes, it would behoove us to view ourselves as the gardens we are. We are gardens: that is what he said.

Why does this knowledge feel so big? Because it means that in our bodies, if not our spirits, we are not alone. We are nothing if not a part of, connected, in relation to. And even a lazy, non-science-brained garden can nurture such a potent little seed.




Captain’s Log

Telluride Daily Planet, Sunday, June 8, 2014

Enterprise, Stardate: 42073.1

Recent days have spawned at outbreak of what ship’s science staff are calling “nostalgia” – for lack of a more precise definition. (Can one call it nostalgia if one has not ever experienced it in the first place? Lieutenant Commander Data posits that in the same way he, an android, has learned to emote, humanoids can long for what they have never had. Fascinating concept; and one I shall have to pursue in a personal journal entry.)

What began as a contest on the holodeck [three-dimensional programmable theater whereby any reality’s coordinates can be morphed] to see who could come up with the most appealing locality, has ended with surprisingly significant consequences for the ship. We are hopeful Counselor Troy and medical personnel can adequately see to the dozens of staff afflicted and unable to attend to their duties, notably First Officer Riker who has been quarantined due to a fever and inconsolable rantings regarding a “rainbowfall.”

The trigger to this epidemic of deep longing and ensuing fantasizing appear to have been the holodeck coordinates corresponding to the 2nd day of a month called June in the gamma sector of a range of volcanic mountains in the southwest of the state of Colorado, in the former United States of America. Earth coordinates 37.9392° N, 107.8163° W. Stardate -308578.99235794, or AD2014 as they would have referred to it back then.

Ensign Byron Folsom, the “winner” of the contest, admits to having come across a short video clip unearthed randomly in a history lesson for his son Anton, which immediately “captivated” them both. The following day, Folsom, against school and Starfleet policy, furthered the lesson by virtualizing it on the holodeck, at which point his own enthusiasm spawned 55 replays by various staff, resulting in a viral infestation of the ship. Folsom, lucid enough to describe his own spontaneous longing for this particular alpine locus, entreated me to experience the hologram, which I have agreed to do tomorrow at 0900 hours.

Currently, the aforementioned holodeck time/space coordinates have been erased from the public system and I have requested a temporary memory dam for Folsom. Anton appears not to have suffered any of the deleterious adult symptoms, which raises a fascinating query into the roots and nature of nostalgia per se.

Troy’s nightly report shows 9 of the 26 afflicted have undergone full spectrum light treatments with some slow but quantifiable measure of success. Other treatment for what we are calling Earth Mountain Paradise Syndrome or EMPS will include a mild course of anti-depressants, reality-based quotidian reorientation, and (amusingly) a substantial dose of caffeine first thing in the morning.

Captain’s Log, Supplemental: The power of the Earth mountain paradise is substantial. I shall try to describe it for the record. A bucolic scene, in the beginning of what appears to be the summer season in a deep valley surrounded by snow-capped peaks. It is verdant beyond belief. There is a majestic waterfall cascading to the ground in the distance, like a veil. Other waterfalls spring forth from red rock. The leaves – of the brightest and most light-filled green I have ever seen — create a soft whispering in the wind, and as I turn my head towards a breeze caressing my cheek, I see to the left another waterfall, gushing then misting over the edge of red cliffs. It is drenched in a rainbow of light, the full spectrum spilling over the rocks in a flow of color, all under the bluest umbrella of sky. The sensation of this… rainbowfall… is a delicious oneness with the natural and supernatural world.

Captain’s Log, Supplemental: Absence of scientific language noted, above entry. For the record, Troy has prescribed two cups Ethiopian Harar first thing in the morning for me. All feelings of longing have been quantified and registered – as have those of the others — on a scale specifically developed by Chief Science Officer Tuvok.

Captain’s Log, Supplemental: Data has proposed he experience the hologram and file a complete report tomorrow. First Officer Riker, responding well to light therapy, has resumed his duties. Coordinates have been set for twin planets in the Coalition of Medina where a Klingon cruiser is reportedly collecting unidentified debris from their upper atmospheres.

Captain’s Log, Supplemental: 22 of the staff reportedly asymptomatic.

Captain’s Log, Supplemental: Lieutenant Commander Data’s monograph, Peaks and Pitfalls of Utopian Exposure as Relates to Humanoid Brian Function, has been submitted to the Federation science team along with the time/space coordinates of Mountain Paradise, once called Tellurium. I have been cleared as asymptomatic, except for a penchant for exotic coffees, which I shall explore further as personal journal entries. Note to self: tomorrow, Ethiopia, Kaldi Estate.


Author’s note: Rainbowfall seen near Via Ferrata June 2. Dreamy and surreal, it lingers with me still.